It's my road and I want more: The storms of life

Bad days happen to all of us. Most days I have the strength and capacity to stay positive, or to turn it positive. I'm a silver-lining kind of person. Unlike when I was younger where my days ran away with me, the external situations dictated my emotions. Where it was either that I was on top of the world or the it was the end of the world. I lived emotionally in extremes.

I have had quite a life and I am not even old. I have lived through some very difficult things. I have survived through a challenging childhood, being a single teen mom, faced betrayal from people I love, from friends to family. I have endured the damage of lies and rumors. I have been cheated on, taken for granted, emotionally and mentally abused. I have had to come face to face and conquered some of my deepest fears. I have survived, strived and thrive.

Yesterday was one of those rarer and rarer days where life throws so much at me I feel the weight of the world and begin to feel myself crack. No matter what I did I couldn't bring myself out of the darkening clouds of the storm. No silver lining to be seen. If I had been younger, without the experience and wisdom I have gained, a day like yesterday would have been detrimental and it would have been heavier to endure.

So... even though yesterday felt like a deep, dark storm that I could not escape. My view of days like this have changed with my life. Once a burdening disturbance that controlled my reaction. Rolling black clouds, violent winds and crashes of lightning from the universe are no longer commands controlling my emotions and outer reactions, but more of an indication of either: a test, trying my will and strength to endure, to prove my ability, capability, and or deserving of coming blessings. Or stirring up the stagnant disease in life to clear, cleanse and make way for something new and better. Or simply proof that what I want, what I manifest is on it's way with the force of a fierce gale that it can't help but stir up my life a bit.

So although the darkened skies linger into today. I no longer hold the naïve belief that the world is against me. I hold strong to the belief that something amazing is just around the corner. I just have to get a little wet in this cleansing rain.

I hope through my storms that I face in my life I can help people find the silver linings, find the light in life. Help people realize they are strong and to instill courage in anyone I meet to face their own storms with faith, bravery, and positivity.