New Beginnings

 New beginnings

    New beginnings are scary. At least for me they are. I have been stepping out of my comfort zone so much lately. It's a good thing, still scary. Maybe for the last few years I've been finding comfort in fear and doubt. Not moving. Not being seen. Hiding. Yet lately I have felt different. 

    Have you seen the movie Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade? If you haven't this is a spoiler. You know when Indiana is at the temple and comes to the leap of faith...  there is a bridge but it's hidden by an optical illusion. I feel like (and have for a long time) like I am standing at the cavern and I can't see a way across or the bridge. The bridge is leading me to my goals and dreams. Stuck.

    Recently though, I have felt myself taking steps across the bridge that I don't see. At least Indiana had the sand. Every time I take a step, it feels like it's out of my control. Like auto pilot. Then my consciousness catches up and I kind of panic inside. My husband says it is my own manifestations helping me.

So the progress I have made so far:

• I have grown my tiktok following from 185 to over 6600 with the ultimate goal of 10k TikTok
• I now have my own tiktok shop. Which I am on the tip of the iceberg learning about. TikTok Shop
• I have started doing my art again. Which makes me so happy
• I have started making videos for youtube and the other social media applications again 
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• I have started making my art videos again

• I have started making my mediation videos again

• I have been working on the novel again
• I am making Designs on Spring.com again Spring.com
• I am blogging again (you are here)
• I opened up an Art Gallery online with ArtPal.com 

It's so much, so fast. All of this on top of my normal life of being a busy mom, wife and having a full time job. It's kind of crazy sometimes. 

I just want to say that if you have a dream or goal you want to reach. Manifest it. See yourself doing it.  Take the steps towards it. I know staying where you are can feel comfortable but it becomes stagnant. I hope you follow your dreams, and reach for your stars. Yes it might be scary, but isn't that kind of wonderful?

Life.

 Life.

It changes on you. It's so fast that you don't even see it changing until you look up. My life has changed so much since my last post. Finding myself all over again. Deciding who I am all over again. I lost myself for so long. Since 2019 I have been on a rough journey to re-discover myself, maybe I'm still on it. 

I have had to deal with so much pain, loss, and betrayal. I have transmuted most if it into forgiveness, redemption, and love. Especially self love. I know each day is a different challenge for a different version of me. I'm still growing and still healing from the things I've experienced.

The journey it's bittersweet watching your loved ones grow and change. Sometimes into someone close to you and sometimes they grow away from you. Knowing they're on their own path as well, you just hope for the best for them. With or without you. Loving them all the same.

I am back on my path to help spread love and light to whoever I meet. 

I hope you find your path and shine your light. Be true to you. Own your authenticity.