War

    All day today I have been busy doing daily things, and even though I've been doing other things I have been trying to think about what to write about. That's why the post  is so late today. I was thinking though about all of my own personal wars with myself. I want to eat what everyone else is eating but I don't want to gain my lost weight back, I want to play WoW but I don't know if I have better things to do. All day without realizing it, and probably everyday before too, I war over this and that. Don't buy the eclairs buy something healthier. Don't drink the soda, have water. Don't hate on myself as much as I do. I need to work on Christmas gifts instead of gaming....visa versa and the list goes on. Trying to figure out what to do with  every decision I have to make. I wonder then if world  peace is even fathomable because people are always at war with some one even if it's just with themselves. Is it even possible for every person to be accepting of every person and everything about each person? I think the wars we wage with ourselves are on some levels so much deeper than the tiffs we have with the people around us. Every person struggles with something, some how, at all times.Warring with yourself is more difficult than other confrontations. When you have something happen between yourself and someone else you have your side and that's all you need, and you can stick strong. You know your side, and your story. When you fight with yourself you have all stories, and all reasons, and finding the "right" thing for yourself is harder to decide. For some people decisions are much easier and they do whatever they think the moment they think it, I can't do that. Everything has a consequence, most times the consequences seem like rewards at first and the some rewards seem like consequences. Eating healthier while everyone else eats "normal" food feels like a consequence but it will reward me with a healthier body and hopefully make it easier to lose my weight. Playing video games all day feels like a reward but in turn has consequences. House is a mess, laundry not done, dishes stacked up, kids are smelly, and hubby is hungry. Every day you win some, every day you lose some, it's all give and take. 

Let the battle continue.