My family is large, loud and wonderful.
We've had our trials, issues, and problems. Everyone does, but that's what makes families stronger, more alive.
When I was 14 life started moving faster, boys and friends became focal points and I stopped noticing my sisters as much. It seemed like they grew up faster because I wasn't paying attention to them.
I was only 14 here. I had no idea what high school and life had in store for me. For the first time in my life I was making decisions on my own. I just started high school, and on the road to find myself. For some people this is easy. They are who they're going to be when they're an adult when they're a child. Not me. My whole life before I was looking up to my sister Suzy. I wanted to be just like her. Sure I am the oldest, but she was so much cooler than me. Everything about her was, from her music, to her style of cloths, just everything. The way she dressed was so grunge, like 'I don't give a care what you think of me'. I dressed so preppy, always worried what people thought. She was so laid back and easy going. I was such a goody-two-shoed square. She in so many ways was opposite of me. She had dark beautiful hair and I didn't think I could be beautiful unless I was blond. She made friends with boys easily, they liked her. I couldn't make a friend with a boy (until later) unless they wanted to screw me or was gay. All of my friends were bubbly girls at this point in my life. I was listening to Backstreet Boys and Hanson, when she was listening to Matchbox 20 and Third Eye Blind. She was so strong, rebellious, and edgy. I was, well, none of those at that point. It's funny how much we've changed since then. Still so different from her I admire her without wishing to be her.
My sister Crystal has grown up into such a strong beautiful woman. She's gone through so much since this picture. Her and I used to fight worse than cats and dogs. She was a trouble maker. I suppose she didn't get enough attention, from anyone, and had to make everyone see her. She's so different now but she's gone through hell to get where she is today. I admire her strength.
Melanie. I used to cling to her as if she was all mine. I remember I taught her how to read and write. She is so beautiful and smart. She never caused the kind of trouble us older three caused. She was always reading, learning, and excelling. She's so beautiful, always reminded me of Julia Roberts. Such a strong woman, she has such a road ahead of her.
Blonde Amber. Only one to keep the natural blond hair. She often reminds me of myself. I am glad she didn't follow in my footsteps. Even though she makes me think of myself as a teenager, Suzy's edginess or Crystal rebelliousness sometimes; she is her own person and always made sure we all knew it. So beautiful, twisted road she forms nothing left unexcited.
Then Brooklynne and Lisa so young in this photo. I feel so bad saying I had a really hard time connecting with them. It wasn't their fault but mine. I was barely going through puberty when they were born, and trying to find myself as they were growing up. So busy wrapped up in myself I didn't notice these two amazing girls. Something I really regret it. Only the last few years have I barely begun to see or even grasp how beautiful and intelligent they are. Their personalities so unique.
These are my sisters. They each hold a giant piece of my heart. I love them so much. Since this photo I have grown to accept, respect and admire them. All so smart and beautiful on their own path of life's journey. I think about them everyday. Through thick and thin they are mine.
Do you have brothers or sisters? When was the last time you talked to them or even thought about them? Can you see them for the wonderful individuals they are?
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