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Sometimes the world moves so slowly while we wait for everything to get better. Most of the time change is happening so fast that we aren't paying attention and the storm that has been brewing on the starboard side while we were waiting, watching the port side. Rushes up on us and capsizes our lives before we even feel the breeze. We often are thrown and feel lost, scared and feel like we are drowning. Find your stars.
The last seven years of my life have been watching the port side, mapping the stars, hoping for the healing of wounds I received in that storm. A little over two years ago another storm threw me, I found my way up but I wasn't on a ship, I was grappling debris, trying to just keep my head above water. Searching for my stars. Daily life was difficult. Despite having moments where all I could see was the dark, all I could feel was the cold, feeling like I couldn't breath, I kept my head up watching the sky and kept my limbs moving. I saw hope on the horizon, of an older ship, in one direction. I swam for it, clutching my debris, I fought and struggled to reach it but a little over a year ago a rogue wave came from another direction. I saw it coming, I prayed it wouldn't. It threw me far and pulled me deep. I have resurfaced. But the hope on the horizon is gone, a false hope vanished when I needed it most. Over the last year I have watched and followed my stars and pulled myself out of the freezing waters, onto a stronger new ship far from home; the false hope still no where to be seen, for the better.
No matter how far or deep your storms move you, no mater how dark it is or cold you are. No matter how lost you feel. You are not alone, just keep your head above water, keep moving, and keep your eye on the horizon and the stars, they are always guiding you.
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